It’s been a while. In the mean time a lot has happened. As you can read from the title not the easiest things. I am working really hard to make my goals come true. My goal is to live as a Happy Little Hippy, which means I can be creative, travel, help others and feel free. When I quit my studie I decided I wanted to go traveling and try to do this blogging thing full time. Somehow I didn’t do do blogging part. But in Januari I got a new job and started working there. To fund my travels and blogging plans. And I found out how hard it was for me to keep going. I started to question myself and my decision, and what I wanted from life. I kept thinking to myself, is this life? Is this it?
Sometimes you just lose focus. My long term goal was traveling and creating content. But short term everything was new and kind of stressing me out. Now I know that my new job was one of the reasons and the unknown also made me really insecure. I even started having panic attacks because at those moment I couldn’t see a happy ending for myself. I am writing this because I want to be honest with you. My life may seem exiting trough my social accounts, and what I share here and there is mostly fun and positive. But I also want to show you that it isn’t all good, we all go trough hard times. And this is real life.
On the day I said goodbye to my class, I got a little present from one of my friends. It was a quote on a little clipboard saying: Will it be easy? Nope. Worth it? Absolutely! This helps me to keep hope. Some people asked me if I wanted to start studying again. But although getting a diploma and a good paid job is tempting to choose, I want to go for this dream that I have. I wanted to be a fashion blogger since I was 14, and I have a real passion for the world, photography, styling outfits, writing and sharing.
I’m a lot better right now, I’m trying different things, doing an online course, learning more about having your business and blogging/youtube and more (you can read more about that in my last post, Fun day in Amsterdam – glips of my day). And I’m a lot more positive right now.
These last two months I kind of had a wake up call. And it made me realize the quote from friend couldn’t be more accurate. I know this won’t be easy, but I know I want to make this dream that I have come true. And I will try to give it my best shot.